CHANCE !!!

i think i feel like a shit, i just thinking about what must i do... sometimes  i feels like want to get a job or get a something who can change my entire life. so what is it? i don't know.. for now i just want something that can make me more valueable ( i dont't know if "valuable' is the right word for describe my self).. sometimes i just worried about my self who doesn't have any skill or potential? no, i sure i have it.. but i don't know what or i dont have facilities to developed it.

if you ask me what i want.. of course i want a chance to make my life change... i'm 22 years old now.. and i feels like it's time for me to make a money.. like a get job or somethin.... i was worrried about my future. you know what? i'm 22 and i still asked money to my dad n mum... it's embarassing right? i feel so bad for this.. honestly i'm frustated.

Sometimes i wonder about what is my fate in future? what i become in future? or what will happen in future? ohh god, i just want a chance.. if someone offering me a job, i will take it.. i know my self, i'm not born to be a leader.. i just like serving someone or taking order from someone... shit... God, please tell me what is your plan for me.. i'm suffering here waitin for a chance...

i think i was hurt my parents.. i'm 22 years old now and still can't do nothing for make my parents happy.. Do you think i like that? NO.. ABSOLUTELY NO... i dont have any idea fr what must i do now.. God please, i need an answers i cant be like this forever.. i must change.. give me away./. show me the way.. give me a CHANCE !!!